Throughout my journey to self acceptance, I never really had any hatred towards my physical body.  This might seem a bit peculiar to someone undergoing gender transition.  Changing one's body is an important step when trying to become the best possible self that an individual can be.

I attribute my lack of physical dysphoria to having Cerebral Palsy.  I never have been physically normal in any shape or form.  My legs do not function how they are supposed to.  My balance is absolutely terrible.  I need to actually hold on to another object when sitting in a chair.  I am a bit hunched over when I walk.  This also causes problems with speaking in my preferred voice as well.  Who knows how this type of posture will affect me in the long run.

I guess I believe that If I have overcome all of my physical obstacles from being handicapped, then not appearing as a woman physically down to the letter is not the most important thing in the world.  Yes, I do want to look like woman and have most of things that every other woman is born with, but I am not going to obsess over every little detail. 

Hopefully when I start to physically transition, I can do so in a healthy way.  However, I would like to expand my fashion sense when it comes to clothes.  I do not want to wake in the morning and just throw any old thing on and call it a day.  I want to actually choose what I am going wear and put some thought into it.

Things are going to be different for me this year.  I am going to become a far better person than I have ever been in the past.  I also hope that my positive changes will rub off on other people.